Rudenski rudenski's Posts - MyPeace.TV2024-03-28T08:11:46Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenskihttps://storage.ning.com/topology/rest/1.0/file/get/2190295122?profile=RESIZE_48X48&width=48&height=48&crop=1%3A1https://mypeace.tv/profiles/blog/feed?user=2ok5e72h0zeos&xn_auth=noWho plays with children who die too young?tag:mypeace.tv,2010-10-04:1992146:BlogPost:1265952010-10-04T02:00:00.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
Me and my six year-old have very serious conversations sometimes but we<br></br>
also have funny ones. My little worker bee changed her mind again about what<br></br>
she wants to be when she grows up. This was a very serious conversation.<br></br>
She must have been thinking about it all week. My little one told me<br></br>
last week she wanted to be a fireman but last night she said it was too<br></br>
dangerous. Now, she wants to work in an ambulance, as a driver or EMT, to save people's<br></br>
lives who are…
Me and my six year-old have very serious conversations sometimes but we<br/>
also have funny ones. My little worker bee changed her mind again about what<br/>
she wants to be when she grows up. This was a very serious conversation.<br/>
She must have been thinking about it all week. My little one told me<br/>
last week she wanted to be a fireman but last night she said it was too<br/>
dangerous. Now, she wants to work in an ambulance, as a driver or EMT, to save people's<br/>
lives who are dying. I said saving people's lives would be a great job.<br/>
Whatever she does, I know she will be who she is and to me that would be<br/>
the best thing of all. That was how our conversation started last night<br/>
but she was not through with me. Sometimes, my littlest angel asks me<br/>
questions she knows the answers to, so she can stay up past 8PM, her<br/>
bed-time. She is a bit sneaky that way but she knows she will get to<br/>
stay up late if she brings up G-d at 8:05 PM. What father would ignore a<br/>
Question about G-d from their six year-old? I tend to see myself as the person in the<br/>
conversation with more knowledge on the subject but after last night, I am fairly certain<br/>
now that I am the complete novice. <br/><br/>I started in with my G-d is love
teaching moment and she turned the whole thing around and had me<br/>
laughing and giggling by the end of our talk. My little one then asked<br/>
me why she is the only one in her school who doesn't say the Pledge of<br/>
Allegiance to the Flag; she also wanted to know who G-d was in the Pledge<br/>
of Allegiance? She knew then she had me hooked. I said there is a phrase<br/>
in the pledge that says one nation under G-d but the G-d referred to in<br/>
the pledge is not the same G-d we pray to. I then told her the G-d in<br/>
the Pledge of Allegiance is the G-d of War and we don't believe in war. I<br/>
asked her to never pledge allegiance or pray to that G-d. When all the<br/>
wars are over, perhaps then, the G-d in the pledge would be the same G-d<br/>
we pray to. My little one then said she doesn't pray to that G-d anyway<br/>
and that she does not pray out-loud because it scares her. She told me<br/>
instead that she talks to G-d on the inside. My little teacher asked me<br/>
another question I am certain she knew the answer when she then asked<br/>
who our God was and I said that our G-d is love. She said, "Oh, I know<br/>
that." She then said something that blew me away. My little one said<br/>
that her G-d is the G-d who is giving her puppy who died 2 chew toys to<br/>
play with... And then she said the G-d who is love, the one she talks to<br/>
on the inside is the G-d who plays with the children who die before<br/>
they get old... and makes funny faces for them... We laughed and I could<br/>
do nothing but agree... Here I was trying to teach my child a lesson<br/>
and an hour later at about 9PM, when she finally fell asleep, I realize<br/>
it was my six year-old who became the teacher who taught me a great<br/>
lesson.Weekend DaDee of A Faerie Princesstag:mypeace.tv,2010-09-05:1992146:BlogPost:1247322010-09-05T17:44:46.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
There is very little that is really magikal but the heart of a child.<br></br><br></br>When I was a child, when the lights went out...against my will...I hid beneath white sheets and made a narrow hole with just enough room to breathe... and I prayed to a loving something out there I called "God" and asked that "God" to protect me in my sleep.... All the while, still I clung tightly to those sheets.. When my restlessness would turn to sleep...I flew above the housetops of…
There is very little that is really magikal but the heart of a child.<br/><br/>When I was a child, when the lights went out...against my will...I hid beneath white sheets and made a narrow hole with just enough room to breathe... and I prayed to a loving something out there I called "God" and asked that "God" to protect me in my sleep.... All the while, still I clung tightly to those sheets.. When my restlessness would turn to sleep...I flew above the housetops of my<br/>neighborhood...<br/><br/>Escaping the dinosaurs that roamed in my head... way high I flew beyond the monsters who lived beneath my bed.... and I flew... and I flew on into that dark sky....illuminated by my very being... the light I had inside.... I felt so at home there... up there in the sky.... flying high with my will above the desert... and then... letting go...glidiing down then up above and below the powerlines like a game.... Just just before I could not go down any more... with the same will, I soared up again...<br/><br/>My little rainbow faerie princess wanted me to hold her while she fell asleep... She said, "DaDee, I don't want to go sleep." She then said, " I always have bad dreams." I said, ""Always? How could that be? Don't you dream other good dreams?" She said "Well, sometimes, I dream of walking on rainbows and riding a unicorn." My little one then said, "Sometimes I dream of faeries and things." I told my little one to think on those things... She whimpered and whined for a little bit more. She was drifting off to sleep and I told her, " I love you my little angel faerie." She said with a whisper, while she still seemed asleep, "I love you DaDee." I lay there for a moment, before I got up and thought how there must be another world out where children go to soar above the clouds... a place where good faeries live...and unicorns too... a place out there beyond the beyond... out there somewhere beyond even time and space... where children find a refuge from the storms of their life... I kissed my little one on the forehead and I thought how much alike we are...<br/><br/>I dropped my little one off at her school, paid her lunch ticket and then had a flat tire. I bought a used tire and went far away to work, spent time teaching a wonderful young blind lady who is getting her GED; it was a long day but I went on to work with a man who has lost most of his vision...helping him with the right words to write and to say while applying for a job. My week is filled with driving miles and miles... and then I do even more miles of paerwork. I then drove across serveral counties to my flat by the bay. I had worked too long on this day and I was tired... I went over the harbour bridge... and parked down on the beach below... I sat in my car just trying to forget that it was only the 3rd day of the month and how my check was almost already gone... I thought how I love my work... but how it doesn't seem fair that work doesn't pay for even the basics anymore... I have to have a car... so I can visit the folks I see....<br/><br/>I have to have a place to stay...even if I don't run the A/C in the Texas heat here in August... because it would cost too much... I was sitting there in my car... followed a seagul as it flew toward the water... and low and behold... a rainbow appears... Aha... another gift from my rainbow faerie child.... The rainbow was filled with beautiful colors but it only went up halfway into the clouds... and then the most extraordinary thing happened... out of the middle of the cloud an opening appeared... and while I knew it was just an optical illusion... a vertical shaft of light came right out of that cloud and there seemed to be a rainbow beam shining out of it... Impossible, I know, but there it was... my own magikal event and it cheered me up...<br/><br/>I woke up this morning and my thoughts were of my faerie princess who lives with her mother far away. I thought of my little one and her unicorn... and now I just know that she was returning the favor from me watching over her while she went to sleep...sending comfort to me when this world sometimes feels like a waking bad dream... I thank whatever being of light sent my little one to me... I also thank the light or that other litlle piece of G-d who believes in faeries, who loves me enough to send me rainbows and unicorns, to lighthen my day...<br/><br/>rudiWaking Up Middle Agedtag:mypeace.tv,2010-08-31:1992146:BlogPost:1242752010-08-31T19:48:47.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: medium; COLOR: rgb(0,0,0); FONT-FAMILY: Arial">Be still heart<br></br>You have loved much<br></br>Still you want more<br></br><br></br>Be still heart<br></br>I want what you want<br></br>But I am not pretty anymore<br></br><br></br>You heart makes me ache<br></br>But each morning when I awake<br></br>I greet the day in a wonderous way<br></br><br></br><br></br>I smile at everyone I meet<br></br>My kindness is real<br></br>It is not faked<br></br><br></br>I find a way to bring joy<br></br>To most everyone I see<br></br>Still my heart…</span></p>
<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: medium; COLOR: rgb(0,0,0); FONT-FAMILY: Arial">Be still heart<br/>You have loved much<br/>Still you want more<br/><br/>Be still heart<br/>I want what you want<br/>But I am not pretty anymore<br/><br/>You heart makes me ache<br/>But each morning when I awake<br/>I greet the day in a wonderous way<br/><br/><br/>I smile at everyone I meet<br/>My kindness is real<br/>It is not faked<br/><br/>I find a way to bring joy<br/>To most everyone I see<br/>Still my heart beats<br/><br/>Be still heart<br/>I want what you want<br/>Yet I want much much more<br/><br/>I want to see my children smile<br/>I want to teach the blind to see<br/>Without eyes<br/><br/>I want all wars to cease<br/>I want the world<br/>to finally find peace<br/><br/>Dear heart<br/>You have been a friend<br/>But I am through with you being sad<br/><br/>Heart it is time you made room<br/>For me<br/>Love me heart<br/><br/>Even though<br/>I am no longer pretty<br/>Love me anyway<br/><br/>Though no lover<br/>Longs to hold me<br/>Although I sleep alone<br/><br/><br/>You heart should still love me<br/>I have worked so hard for you<br/>Needing to rest inside your warmth<br/><br/>Every lover you loved heart<br/>Found a way to<br/>Leave me<br/><br/>But heart<br/>You have taken so much<br/>How much do you need?<br/><br/><br/>You awake in me a longing<br/>For passion<br/>A sweet caress<br/><br/>But heart you appear a dagger<br/>Wounded and broken lovers<br/>Lay all along the path you’ve made<br/><br/>Be okay heart<br/>With gentle love<br/>A returned smile<br/><br/><br/>The morning calls<br/>Your longing echoes again<br/>Still there is a smile<br/><br/><br/>A bird outside is singing<br/>A breeze through the window<br/>Cools my burning desire<br/><br/>It is time heart<br/>For us to be still again<br/>Greet the day with joy anyway</span></p>
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<p><span style="FONT-SIZE: medium; COLOR: rgb(0,0,0); FONT-FAMILY: Arial"><br/><br/>rudy</span></p>God has some splainin' to dotag:mypeace.tv,2010-03-10:1992146:BlogPost:1066132010-03-10T16:08:31.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
<font size="5">I have given my heart to the 'Light,' but God on the other hand has some splainin' to do, in my opinion. He cut us loose down here in lower heaven or upper hell with a great sadness and fear... but we who are his children down here should question his teaching methods. I understand that this dimension is an illusion but not a very kind one. Some souls fall for deep dark illusions as they need those lessons to be a deep contrast to the light... but in other dimensions the…</font>
<font size="5">I have given my heart to the 'Light,' but God on the other hand has some splainin' to do, in my opinion. He cut us loose down here in lower heaven or upper hell with a great sadness and fear... but we who are his children down here should question his teaching methods. I understand that this dimension is an illusion but not a very kind one. Some souls fall for deep dark illusions as they need those lessons to be a deep contrast to the light... but in other dimensions the contrasts are much more subtle... like a subtle light with the slightest hint of magenta. But just as some people love horror movies because they want to be frightened...<br/><br/>I hope I am done in this lifetime, with the illusions of horror it offers, so I can move on to those more subtle dimensions where joy and towering joy are the learning variables. <br/><br/>When I was a child, I mutilated insects and feared the night. As a young man, I hated people for their different skin colors, religions, political leanings and sexual orientation. I believed God hated those not like me and believed it was brave to defend God from those he hated. The God of my youth loved me because I loved him and I could not see anything but his love for those like me. God loved me but he was a jealous and fearful old man who demanded all bow down and give their hearts to him or they would burn forever in anguish and torment. I had given all of my heart to a jealous and fearful God. That path led me to my death.<br/><br/>Returning from death and my meeting the Light has been a shock for me. Now, as my chin hairs are just now turning gray, I realize my belief that God hated those not like me was just like me being afraid of the dark and putting a pillow over my head to hide from it. What I refused to see could not hurt me. Today, I see clearly that the being of light I met in my Near Death Experience is not the same jealous and fearful God that I believed hated others not like me. The being of light was love. I replaced my jealous fearful God with a God who is love. Love loves and is not jealous. Love loves and is not fearful. Love is light. The Light loves the light in me and those like me yes...but more...The Light loves the light in those who outwardly, politically, religiously and philosophically appear different than me. The light in you and the light in me is all light. We are all literally God who is love. When the illusion of this world fades away... the light in all... will carry on...<br/><br/>If I am ever an old man, I hope to see a day when children and young people will no longer bow down to a jealous and angry God. I hope to see a day when no one will kill another because they believe their God hates the other. It is easier to correct children with fear but I hope a day will come when teachers of children will honor their children and love them enough to choose to teach children without using fear to correct them. I long to see a day when parents, preachers, priests and teachers will no longer teach their children to be jealous and fearful of others. Teaching honor will take its place. If I am ever old and die without seeing this world change, I will be okay because I died before and when I die again, I will no longer lend my soul to an angry and jealous God again. I will refuse to come back into this world of tears and pain. Into the arms of love I will remain.<br/><br/>Let each of us who enter into this world find our way to joy and hold on to that light. Make joy our God. Not just the joy in those like us but the joy in all.<br/><br/>Love, Light & Joy to All,<br/><br/>rudi</font>Sending MY Hope to Hatti(A Near Death Experience Perspective)tag:mypeace.tv,2010-01-24:1992146:BlogPost:1028402010-01-24T14:38:11.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
When I read messages about the Hatti earthquake and others this morning, I meditated on all of the suffering going on the the world and I had a vision of souls as geese dropping in a huge frying pan,,, But then again... are we souls not just swimming against the current like lemmings.. moving toward our demise without realizing the painful experience that awaits us... throwing ourselves into that frying pan until one day we stop throwing ourselves into the frying pan and go another way... Pain…
When I read messages about the Hatti earthquake and others this morning, I meditated on all of the suffering going on the the world and I had a vision of souls as geese dropping in a huge frying pan,,, But then again... are we souls not just swimming against the current like lemmings.. moving toward our demise without realizing the painful experience that awaits us... throwing ourselves into that frying pan until one day we stop throwing ourselves into the frying pan and go another way... Pain is a quick way to learn lessons but there are other more subtle ways to develop spiritually...<br />
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If I am still alive in a physical body, then I still have lessons to learn by being in the frying pan that is this life down here in the dimension of time... There is a nearly 100% chance we will not make it out of the frying pan alive but some temporarily do and come back with visions and dreams of a better dispensation... then get thrown back in in the frying pan again because we are not ready... but we will all have our gooses cooked before it is through... For some it is a quick stir fry and for others it is a slow boil but the only way out of the endless cycle of abusing our souls is is to embrace love, peace, compassion and empathy for the other souls going through the same suffering we are going though instead of pushing others down to allow us to live one more moment in a body...<br />
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If we try to relieve the suffering of others in the frying pan of life, we may even find our own pain diminishes somewhat. If we shock the chef and start telling him we would appreciate if he would turn down the heat, sometimes he does... but ultimately we have ourselves to blame entering the stream we new would get our goose cooked.<br />
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There is a promised land where souls can laugh and play with one another but they have to get their lessons learned about helping one another first and then talking to the chef to learn the rules about playing in the promised land with the other souls before we get to enter in. To get to play and dance and sing our songs in timelessness, and timelessness is a long, long, long time, the chef of our souls wants to make sure we are well prepared to live in peace with the other souls with others who learned their lessons too. But until then, if you feel the heat down here then keep practicing loving kindness, being peaceful, sowing compassion and empathy for other and learn to talk kindly to the ones controlling the heat in your life and you will be less likely to have to return to this world of tear and pain, in the frying pan of time.<br />
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In y Near Death Experience, I witnessed the earth evolving toward light and devolving back toward darkness... back and forth over the ages but toward the end I saw a time when the earth was full of light... I had no sense of time but for those in Hatti... during this time of great human suffering and those helping or sending good thoughts... I hope the light comes sooner than later...<br />
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May Y-h(The sum of all love) bless those in Hatti first and then the rest of us next... Sending my hope for a better day for Hatti and the rest of the world too, a better day.<br />
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Sending hope to Hatti for a better day,<br />
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rudi<br />
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rudi"our mourning will be turned to dancing"tag:mypeace.tv,2009-12-04:1992146:BlogPost:1007642009-12-04T03:21:02.000Zrudenski rudenskihttps://mypeace.tv/profile/rudenskirudenski
"our mourning will be turned to dancing" -author unknown but it smacks of<br />
truth... and soon...
"our mourning will be turned to dancing" -author unknown but it smacks of<br />
truth... and soon...