wonderful words, you are both so Beautiful. Thank you for being who you are- Gifts to the world <3

I hope they helped you Maria. I would add to it, but there is nothing else to say.

thank you all for your kind words. Sometimes you just need to hear another person's point of view to understand why things are the way they are.
I have been on my journey to inner peace for a while now, and for the most part I do good. Things rarely get to me, and I don't struggle with the petty things that make a lot of people tick (or not). However, once in a while, something will gain my attention and I will let it get the best of me.
I have, since writing this, come to terms with her. she is who she is, and I am not one to tell her where to go or what to do. I don't wish anyone to tell me that I am right or wrong and I am an avid believer of the golden rule. I also try to surround myself with positivity, and I find her presence rather negative. I don't really talk to her, AT ALL, but the reason isn't her absence at the funeral(s). It's not anger, either. It's more a lack of common ground.
As far as my faith goes, I am a follower of Jesus as well. At this point in time, I don't believe that religion is going to get me to heaven. Faith is the only key, and I pray daily for strenth and understanding. I get the most out prayer than anything else in my life...

Maria, Light a fire to get out of your mire, because only this purification will set you free. And when you start, be sure to write on paper (wood, for the trunk unites heaven and earth with the law of love) all you need, then burn it up and make a start to be the one who is set free.
your devoted servant, white buffalo calf woman, your twin deer mother, really it's that simple my love, to believe!